more lullabies to sing

so for some odd reason i've always had a feeling that i should be the mother of 4. after anneliese was born i would have dreams about another baby. it was a strong feeling. a not done feeling. but life with 3 is not a cake walk-and there were so many times that i tried to tell myself to let it go. 3 is good. 3 is amazing. i'm sleeping through the night now-seriously why would i want to go through all that really hard stuff again. i even started telling people that we were done, we sold the van. bought a prius. but secretly i was a little disappointed when month after month nothing was happening.
but now it is becoming a reality. baby number 4 is due to arrive around may 1st. i will have more lullabies to sing. and i am very happy and a little scared. it is exciting to share this with the kids-as they were all too little before to really understand what was happening.
scared because i already feel very crowded in this house. closeness is good-and i'm working on my auditory sensitivities, but it all gets to be a little too much sometimes. we are hoping to add on-but that brings all sorts of new stresses to the table. money, planning, money...
need to sleep now.



this blog may be my new procrastination for working on the other blog :)

here is one of the pictures i took over the birthday weekend. my mom requested some pictures of kids reading-for her new reading lab.